The last few days have been rough...

An endless pattern of four hours of disturbed sleep for the last week together with the return of chronic chest and back pain have hit me hard.

Don’t get me wrong, this is nothing like the pain before my bypass surgery and through the following days and weeks of recovery but it grinds me down and the insomnia and pain that comes and goes has made me irritable.

I try and sort myself out and I try to apologize to those around me when I am going through this. But still...I am disappointed with myself that I can so easily regress to former bad character traits.

But it is also a reminder to me that recovery from bypass surgery is a long process and I need to continue to try and be patient.

It’s just the contrast in my vitality now to my past lethargy and continual discomfort before surgery is so dramatic that I forget that it’s only 9 weeks since I was in theatre on the table with the surgeon’s scalpel poised over my chest...