A personal journey
Life changing
It’s the end of my two weeks holiday.
I go back to work tomorrow after 10 days dominated by medical appointments.
The medical theatre staff told me during the angiogram that my diagnosis was pretty clear…
I have been diagnosed with coronary heart disease
Three of my arteries are 70-80% blocked and the surgeons are now discussing whether to carry out a triple bypass through open heart surgery.
I will know later this week about what exactly the surgeons will do for sure and then will potentially go for the procedure in 4-6 weeks from that decision.
A 98% success rate in most cases and it is likely to take me 3 months to fully recover…
I don’t understand
Apparently my condition could be hereditary, a defective gene and not even the cause of anything I did or my lifestyle choices. I have never smoked, I don’t suffer from diabetes (a prime factor for Cardiovascular disease) but likely the stress I carry has also played a part.
Life changing
Don’t know what to think except that nothing will be the same from this next week onwards. I have always been the decision maker, the leader in everything I do and now I can’t even process my next thought…
Is this a turning point in my life?
I have lost my past relied upon sense of predicting outcomes now, for me, my family or my career. I’m really struggling to be optimistic and motivated now. It’s going to be tough on my family. I love them so much.
Any nice moment I have with the family or memories come with a tinge of sadness and I just want to cry.