And so it continues. Each day is like "Groundhog Day" with our daily routine hampered by the pandemic restrictions around my recovery.

Each night is long and tedious. Four hours of sleep on average which the impacts the day that follows...

I struggle with having to be patient while I heal...

I am clinging on in anticipation of the week ahead. A few days to go until we are reunited with our kids again and with that a change of scene; and hopefully relief from the impact of "cabin fever" that my wife and I are experiencing now.

Christmas is going to be a special time for the four of us this year with everything we have been through.

On the medical front it will also be a week today before I visit the cardiologist again for what will be my first check up and six weeks after the operation. As mentioned before, it has been odd to go so long without any type of medical assessment so I am looking forward to knowing if I am on track.

And if it all goes to plan then I will be allowed to drive again and with that a new level of independence.

So hopefully you can understand why I am desperately "hanging in there" through this final week with the anticipation of change on lots of levels to come.

I have never experienced such an extended period of "quiet" time like this in my life before. A time when my mind has become free of day to day distraction to be able to reflect on my life and what I really need to feel fulfilled.

As the pain eases and my mobility and independence returns, I am more able to bring a consciousness and focus thinking to my purpose and priorities.

At the very least I know that I cannot return to the way I used to live my previous life.